Comments on: Ongline #285 Gay Little Self http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/ Ongline Podcast documents the life of a gay Malaysian-born Chinese living in the United States. Immerse yourself in the life of a not-so-typical individual. Expand your horizon by experiencing the topics, issues, stories, and simply, the life of a gay Asian man. Until now, the voice of a minority individual has not been this loud! Wed, 03 Mar 2010 07:19:57 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: John Ong http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55739 John Ong Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:08:17 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55739 Yes PB. I see a video podcast coming when we meet again. :) Turban fashion show. Yes PB. I see a video podcast coming when we meet again. :)
Turban fashion show.

]]> By: pinoyboy http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55737 pinoyboy Sun, 17 Aug 2008 15:06:51 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55737 John, you are my towel turban sister John, you are my towel turban sister

]]> By: Val http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55716 Val Wed, 13 Aug 2008 12:36:45 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55716 That photo of you are so cute and happy! I enjoy the podcast and definitely put a smile on my face this week...... That photo of you are so cute and happy! I enjoy the podcast and definitely put a smile on my face this week……

]]> By: Dave in Seattle http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55715 Dave in Seattle Tue, 12 Aug 2008 04:36:58 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55715 Hey John, Touching show! Cute pic. I grew up with 2 older brothers and a younger sister. We were very athletic and the only way I felt different was that I kept getting crushes on friends.... Hey John,

Touching show! Cute pic. I grew up with 2 older brothers and a younger sister. We were very athletic and the only way I felt different was that I kept getting crushes on friends….

]]> By: Vincent Tan http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55714 Vincent Tan Tue, 12 Aug 2008 03:55:30 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55714 Thanks John, for the 'speak up'. :-) Thanks John, for the ’speak up’. :-)

]]> By: John Ong http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55713 John Ong Tue, 12 Aug 2008 02:51:48 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55713 Thanks Jonathan. And thanks Nick for sharing. Thanks Jonathan. And thanks Nick for sharing.

]]> By: Nick Thomas http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55712 Nick Thomas Mon, 11 Aug 2008 23:51:11 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55712 Nice to hear about your young life. I don't think I've ever heard you speak of these things before. I have to agree with Jonathan (above). You were a cute little boy - now a grown up man still maintaining his cuteness. I realized I was different when the other boys began to talk about girls and I wondered what all the fuss was about. It wasn't that I wanted sex from a boy. I didn't even know about those things till much later. I did like wrestling boys. I'm certain my penis grew stiff at that and that in and of itself was a good thing and quite satisfying. Just being close to another boy was nice. By the time I discovered sex I was so self conscience about the way I looked being such a skinny boy that I just isolated myself from the world. I wasn't comfortable in my skin either. I just knew I wasn't like the "other boys". The isolation made it difficult for me to be around anyone my age. My fear grew. I never had a best friend when I was in grade school. I never had anyone to spend the night with me. All of this accumulated to the point where I felt like the oddest guy in this big world. A world I didn't feel comfortable in. Those feelings have followed me into adulthood. Now I get by - by pretending I'm not myself. It's like I'm wearing a mask. That no one can really see the real me. That is what makes life bearable. But it hasn't made things better. It has only made life harder and this is probably why I've found it so hard to love life. To want to be here. To want to stay. But I reluctantly trudge along. Sorry for the senseless banter. I'll regret posting this. But what the hell. Nice to hear about your young life. I don’t think I’ve ever heard you speak of these things before. I have to agree with Jonathan (above). You were a cute little boy – now a grown up man still maintaining his cuteness. I realized I was different when the other boys began to talk about girls and I wondered what all the fuss was about. It wasn’t that I wanted sex from a boy. I didn’t even know about those things till much later. I did like wrestling boys. I’m certain my penis grew stiff at that and that in and of itself was a good thing and quite satisfying. Just being close to another boy was nice. By the time I discovered sex I was so self conscience about the way I looked being such a skinny boy that I just isolated myself from the world. I wasn’t comfortable in my skin either. I just knew I wasn’t like the “other boys”. The isolation made it difficult for me to be around anyone my age. My fear grew. I never had a best friend when I was in grade school. I never had anyone to spend the night with me. All of this accumulated to the point where I felt like the oddest guy in this big world. A world I didn’t feel comfortable in. Those feelings have followed me into adulthood. Now I get by – by pretending I’m not myself. It’s like I’m wearing a mask. That no one can really see the real me. That is what makes life bearable. But it hasn’t made things better. It has only made life harder and this is probably why I’ve found it so hard to love life. To want to be here. To want to stay. But I reluctantly trudge along. Sorry for the senseless banter. I’ll regret posting this. But what the hell.

]]> By: Jonathan http://onglinepodcast.com/2008/08/10/ongline-285-gay-little-self/comment-page-1/#comment-55711 Jonathan Mon, 11 Aug 2008 16:07:41 +0000 http://onglinepodcast.com/?p=727#comment-55711 You completely adorable in that picture! You look very happy. You completely adorable in that picture! You look very happy.

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