Voice Comment: (206) 888-JOHN
Show #188 | Duration: 31:00 | 14.4 MB | Mono |
Kay, thanks for sharing your stories. Take care. All the best with your future. Hope to chat with Jay in the future too.
Listen to Kay’s first chat with me a few months ago.
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I heard myself, finally. Thanks. Will try to drag Jay in to chat. 🙂
Thanks for sharing your stories. It will inspire and empower many people. If not now, in the future. I know from our previous show.
Yes drag Jay. Tell him I don’t bite! I’ll be nice.
I believed Kay will get a happy ending with the person he love, wish him all the best, no more tears 🙂
Vincent, thanks. I wish them all the best too.
I am more of a believer in the journey than the destination. We all love happy endings. But life is still life. I think the happy ending for me is the present, not the gift, but now. The day you get to spend time and love your partner is a tiny happy ending. There is no destination for me in a relationship, it is always about the journey together.
The whole conversation in the podcast was so “surreal” or “senseless” if I didn’t want to be nice. I don’t understand why is Kay so hesitant in responding? If he’s uncomfortable talking, why did he agreed on speaking online with John?
Well all come to this table at different stages. Some are more outspoken, some are not as comfortable. But the chat with Kay is a follow up on how he is doing now. And yes, at times, he sounded a bit hesitant, but this is exactly what I want to capture. The real picture of a gay person, at times still struggling with the society and sometimes relationship.
I probably should have put a link to the first interview. That’s my bad. I’ll do so now.
http://onglinepodcast.com/2006/05/04/ongline-150-kays-stories-1/
If the desire to portray the “shyness” of malaysian homosexual was intended, then perhaps you could have mentioned it in the begining of the pod-cast thus providing a more general background to the exercise.
The poor Kay. From his defunct blog, I believe that he is from Pankor? Perak? If so, that is dreadful.
Bravo for your initiative to actually maintain your connection with your homeland. I have no success in doing such, alas.
Thanks for your input Ken’ichi. I am not desring to portray anything. I am merely providing a place to tell a story as it is. The goal is to have a real voice telling a real story.
I also thought Kay seemed hesitant in the interview and I felt sort of like an inteloper listening in. Nevertheless, I am hoping to hear the conclusion of this interview as it seemed to end abruptly. I feel like I’m hanging out here waiting for resolution or something. Despite this, you are so sweet John to be so concerned with your friend Kay. I’m trying to get a friend of mine to do a podcast with me also. I’ve two professional mics here and only one is being used. Oh BTW, I now have skype. My skype name is cnickthomas. Call me sometime. I’d love to introduce you to my listeners if you would not mind. I’ve linked to your site on my pages and told friends about your podcasts. I love your shows. Mine are mostly political in nature. I want to get back to doing more personal shows. Keep up the great work John and I love your Out video. Sweet!
Nick, thanks for you comment. Yes, there will be a second part coming.
I found Kay’s website through another listener. I ended up contacting him. And did the first interview. He was going through a rough time.
As a Malaysian, I am very interested in finding out what people go through being gay in Malaysia. I haven’t really been out, and living in Malaysia.
So, any reaction, any words uttered is precious for me. To understand the struggle and triumph of a person is sometimes a good lesson for others.
Will see you on Skype. Would love to chat with you on and off the show.
Hey John – my 1st podcast is up! I ummed a lot, but i spose it will get better as i go. Thanks for being an inspiration.
http://www.773podcast.com
Kay, I tried fining your e-mail, but I’m a lazy bitch. lol. I just hope you are well and that you will have enough belief/strength in yourself to be out and to have those that you love and are in your life be a part of your life. Wishing you the best.
Hi John! I think you are so cool and amazing and talented and super special and stuff!
Brad, Yay! I’ll check it out.
VJnet, very sweet of you. Thanks for the kind words.
I’m glad that Kay is no longer on the “hamster wheel”…if we are living in the past, we really not living at all…good luck!!!
John, I have to agree with you that coffee drinks from Satr”tut” and Coffe”tut” in Malaysia are very the very EXPENSIVE!!!!
Just wanting to let you know I love your laugh. It always sounds like bubbling joy to me. And best of luck to the tentative paramours.
Ken’ichi Lee, I dont think Kay is hesistant to speak, but put yourself in his shoes.. He is struggling to hold back his tears as he speaks..
I believe you know how difficult is it to talk when you are trying to grasp for air in the midst of crying?
Its obvious he still yearns for Jay, well, you know what I mean here, and more so since Jay was his first relationship at around 23 if I am not mistaken..
My first real relationship at 19 was just plain horrible.. before that it’s just flirting and fooling around.. But now I know, how much pain and agony seeing the one you loved and put all your heart into slipped away from your arms..
“The only thing certain about the future is it’s uncertainty.”
Kay: Glad that you’re coping well with things and it’s nice to see that you’re smiling again =)
Eric: are you the one who emailed me about not responding? Thanks for the comments and appreciate everyone who take time to respond to the show. Unfortunately, I haven’t hit perfection with my memory, in fact I’m closer to successfully forgetting stuff more than remembering it. My apology.
yw[2k]: gosh, so hard to type your name! Thanks for the comment. Nice chat the other night. 😉
Hehe… I was quite shocked when I received your call actually. Kit told me he was with you (I thought that you were in KL or something) and I certainly didn’t expect a call all the way from the States!
At first I didn’t know who you were, but shortly after, I recognised your voice. Haha. Will get back to you on the ‘list’ 😉
Yes John, it’s me.. 🙂
And I have successfully managed to download it at a later time. However, it seemed to end hanging? I supposed you would want to continue it, right?