Voice Comment: (206) 888-JOHN
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Feeling tired and uninspired. Respecting differences. Putting things in perspectives. Why do I podcast?
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I completely agree with you about trying not to get involved but sometimes you get pulled in. I try to stay out as much as I can. And I agree about respecting differences. I love it when people on my group shows openly discuss their opinions and I try to keep them from disrespecting each other. It’s hard sometimes but I think dialogue is important to understand. Love when you tell us how you feel. You’re a gem!
Wow, what a great episode! I totally agree with so much of what you said! Sometimes we all need a reality check (grin).
I absolutely do not know what you are talking about at the beginning of this podcast. Must I go listen to Chef Mark’s podcast to figure it out? John – not everyone of your listeners listen to the same podcasts. I do not listen to Chef Mark. So I haven’t the slightest idea what you’re talking about at the beginning. Could you be a little more specific? I’m not surprised Archerr and Tim Corrimal get it. Their a part of that clique of podcasters that listen to one anothers podcasts. So I’m out-of-the-loop, which is probably a good thing except when you talk about things here in cryptic language. 😛 You silly ass
Thanks for all your comments. Including Zillafag’s voicemails, which I’ll play on the up coming shows.
Nick, my point is, there are things that are not worth discussing according to my own judgement. It has nothing to do with being nice or honesty, it’s entirely my personal judgement. And it’s telling me there’s nothing good going to come out of it. Why waste the energy on something unproductive? I’ve a busy whore, some of you may know this. I have multiple jobs and always involve myself with various projects. Time is limited for me. I try to make decisions wisely. As wise as I’m capable of.
But I appreciate your feedback. I really thought this show was utter crap. Hmmm, yet again, that shows that it’s difficult to judge.
Hi John, I was going to leave a voice mail, but something tells me it would be better to write a comment here, since you probably won’t want to play more audio about it on your show. You can feel free to read it in your show if you’re so inclined.
I think that you DID understand my point, certainly about stepping away from the circle jerk aspect.
My larger point was that this “community” has time and again revealed itself as a very dysfunctional “community” if it can even be called that. You touched on that.
When all that hubbub happened back in April, I was more bothered by the fact that my so-called “friends” within the podcasting community said and did absolutely nothing to stand up against the stupidity and meanspiritedness, than by the stupidness itself. The petty people who insulted me are petty people and they insult ANYONE who they feel threatened by. Their utter lack of self-esteem speaks for itself.
It was the lack of support, public or even private, that revealed to me just how empty this community is. With the exception of 3 people (who are wonderful good people, they know who they are), no one else checked in with me since then to see how I was doing. This isn’t the first time this has happened. There have been a number of examples of people being out of the loop for awhile, and no one checking in on them. I heard through the grapevine that some people said that they were afraid to say anything for fear that the insults would start coming their way. That’s pretty cowardly.
So I decided to simply stop listening. It’s not worth wasting time with it, and as you say, it’s really nothing more than a circle jerk of people whose sense of how important their shows are is out of all proportion. There are other communities where the people are more authentic, and surprisingly enough, MUCH more accepting of differences, and I have been spending my time and energy there. One of them is a podcast run by born again Christians, where I feel MUCH more welcomed and accepted than among the queer podcasters. That’s saying alot.
So that’s the fuller context of what I meant in the comment you heard in my show, and I wanted to clarify since you made a point of making the topic of the show about it. I wish everyone well. If it works for them to be involved with what you call the circle jerk crowd, that’s great for them. It just didn’t work for me any longer. 🙂
Now I’m more confused than ever. Maybe one day someone will send me a private email telling me just what “happened back in April”, as alluded to by Chef Mark’s comment above. I guess there are some Born-again Christians who are non-proselytizers, but I tend to doubt it. The bottom line for most of them is that homosexuality is a sin and you must change in order to enter the kingdom of heaven. I know some believe repentance covers you for life. But that isn’t what fundamentalist Christianity teaches down here. Maybe they think differently in the NE and the West. I don’t believe in an afterlife. I think some just find it hard to accept the fact we only get one shot. That is why life is both precious and a burden to me. There is one person in this world I worry about above all others. If I knew he would be okay my mind would be at rest. I have to agree with Mark in the pettiness of many. I’ve felt abandoned at times to. The thing that works for me is to take it one day at a time. I don’t play along and I say what I think. These things don’t bring me many friends and sometimes breed contempt. But who I’m I? I am insignificant to the big picture and once I die I’ll be quickly forgotten. And you know, that really does not bother me at all. I had a little fun and a lot of pain. But I had an opportunity to live. Sorry to ramble. Where else could I do that but here. Nice podcast John. You always get us thinking.
Mark,
Your point is well made. I have also stopped listening because some of these ‘communities” are only open to one point of view and I can find more interesting discussions that allow me to expand my horizons because there are multiple views with logical arguments. The drama is not worth it and removing yourself is much healthier in the end. Petty people are drawn to each other on and off line!
Matt