I had a nice long conversation with two friends this afternoon.
We were watching pictures of some amazing shots a friend of mine took in Cambodia, Myanmar, Thailand and so forth. With some nice ethereal Eastern music in the background, I suddenly realize that I haven’t allowed myself to calm down and be silent. I haven’t had a chance to reflect. To find my focus. To find my balance. To find peace.
I am emotionally confused. I understand how I got into it. My sister. Parting with a good friend. I know it is okay to let myself be vulnerable sometimes. But my failure is that I get the attention from being vulnerable and sensitive. I am subconsciously enjoying the attention and get stuck in the state where I’m constantly emotional.
In the meantime, I have decided to refocus my purpose. I want to find my peace again. And I know I will. I think when that comes, I’d have more good things to offer.
I’m seriously going to drag you down to Winfield and dunk you in the hot tub. How about some jet skiing at the lake? I know you’d enjoy it . . . but I’d have to dunk you a good one there too! Love ya! Lisa
Thank you Lisa.
I think I have finally found what I have been looking for. I’ve just been looking for it in the wrong places.
WTF is that all about John?
Nick, that was a SPAM slipped through.